I must say that I am like most of you out there. I wait and do my own thing when God says do something else. I act like a spoiled brat, with arms crossed across my chest, refusing to give in. I pout and linger, digging my toe in the ground as if He's going to give in to me. Like I know what's really best for me...like I see the big picture. Haven't I been down this road before? Haven't I said, "I will do better next time?" Man, I do try. And I try real hard and yet, I can't seem to get it right.
I guess that is the problem right there. I'm the one that is trying. Me. Not God.
I want to hold on the the hurts. I want to make my self heard. Yet, God says, "No. Do it my way. It's not the easiest or the most comfortable way, but IT IS the best way."
And yet when I find myself struggling and floundering. And yet again make a mess of things...then and only then do I fall on my knees in repentance, asking God to please forgive me and to give me another chance. And because He is the God that He is...He will give me yet another chance. He will love me through this journey. He will once again confront me with those things that hold me back from truly experiencing His best for me. Only when I can relinquish control of my ENTIRE life...the good, the bad and the REAL ugly...can He do His best work. Only then can He work in me.
The process is long and painful. It is not an easy journey. But I am willing to take the bumps along the road to get to the point where God is all encompassing. Where I hear His voice and simply say..."Yes."
Just this evening as I was putting my two cherubs to bed...I tell one of them (in an exhausted tone), "Why don't you just say "yes, mommy" the first time I tell you to do something? It would be so much easier if you would." Can it get any clearer than that for me, right now in this chapter of my life?
Thankfully, God isn't finished with me yet. And He isn't finished with you yet either. He is the Master Craftsman. He is the Potter and we are the clay. He is master of all. And his best work, His Masterpiece is being developed in you and in me...
So when you think that God is angry and that He can't possible give you another chance,think again. He loves you too much to give up on you that easily. Hang in there and continue to run the race, walk the walk, and when you fall, dust yourself off, get up and continue the race. You won't be sorry.
I guess that is the problem right there. I'm the one that is trying. Me. Not God.
I want to hold on the the hurts. I want to make my self heard. Yet, God says, "No. Do it my way. It's not the easiest or the most comfortable way, but IT IS the best way."
And yet when I find myself struggling and floundering. And yet again make a mess of things...then and only then do I fall on my knees in repentance, asking God to please forgive me and to give me another chance. And because He is the God that He is...He will give me yet another chance. He will love me through this journey. He will once again confront me with those things that hold me back from truly experiencing His best for me. Only when I can relinquish control of my ENTIRE life...the good, the bad and the REAL ugly...can He do His best work. Only then can He work in me.
The process is long and painful. It is not an easy journey. But I am willing to take the bumps along the road to get to the point where God is all encompassing. Where I hear His voice and simply say..."Yes."
Just this evening as I was putting my two cherubs to bed...I tell one of them (in an exhausted tone), "Why don't you just say "yes, mommy" the first time I tell you to do something? It would be so much easier if you would." Can it get any clearer than that for me, right now in this chapter of my life?
Thankfully, God isn't finished with me yet. And He isn't finished with you yet either. He is the Master Craftsman. He is the Potter and we are the clay. He is master of all. And his best work, His Masterpiece is being developed in you and in me...
So when you think that God is angry and that He can't possible give you another chance,think again. He loves you too much to give up on you that easily. Hang in there and continue to run the race, walk the walk, and when you fall, dust yourself off, get up and continue the race. You won't be sorry.
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