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Forgiveness...Ouch!

What can I say about forgiveness? Well, that I don't do it as quickly as I should. That it is never the first thought that comes to mind when someone hurts me or my family. Actually the very first thing I do think about is...well, maybe I shouldn't say what I think...but I have a strange feeling you just might know.
I have a choice to forgive or not to. I can choose to hold on to bitterness and anger. And in choosing not to forgive I have sown unforgiveness in my own life. There are consequences to our actions and the consequences to holding on to offense is not good. Let alone that the word of God says that if we do not forgive then He will not forgive us....that's a BIG OUCH!!
So, God, what do I do when someone hurts me? Am I releasing them from the offense? It does not negate the fact that you were hurt, but you are setting yourself free from strife and conflict, stress and bitterness when you do choose to forgive. Living with unforgiveness is not healthy for your mind or spirit. If any of you have ever done a 3 week cleanse then it's something like that...you are getting rid of the toxins in your spiritual system and in turn it will manifest or show itself in your body, your face, your countenance. (Never would've thought that that 3 week cleanse I did would ever make it into anything I would ever write let alone be equated to a spiritual experience...funny).
Even now I am learning to release those hurts. Is it easy? No! Can I do it? No! Not in my own strength I can't. But I definitely can with God's help. I don't want my children living like I have. I want to demonstrate God's love. And if swallowing my pride and humbling myself is what I have to do then so be it.
I urge you to search your hearts and let God do some deep surgery so that you can be healed and set free from unforgiveness. I am learning that if I don't forgive then my life is tense and there's an oppressiveness there. I desire to be free from the toxins that try to invade my life. I know it's not easy, but try it...it'll do you a world of good and when you need to be forgiven it will be done for you what you have already done for another.

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